Feeling Alive

I don't want to jump the gun by saying this, but I actually feel happy today. I'm afraid announcing that will abruptly lead to everything falling apart.

Doesn't seem to be happening yet...

I feel hopeful. I feel like my chances for the kind of life I want may not be extinct after all.

I think I noticed I was happy sometime this afternoon and was quite surprised. It's been a long time since I noticed I was happy. I've spent a lot of time lately just getting by. Happy is a refreshing change.

Even writing that I'm happy, thinking about how I'm happy, is making me happy.

I'm meta-happy.