Monday, December 26, 2005

JC in the OP

I just finished an Ethics course in which we read some readings from John Rawls’ A Theory of Justice. Rawls proposes that all social justice should be decide in the original position, or as my ethics professor called it, the OP. In the OP, people are blind to their individual circumstances…They don’t know if they are black or white, rich or poor, male or female and so forth. Because of this blindness, when deciding terms for social justice, people in the OP will agree to terms that are as close to equal as possible. Rawls also has a principle called the difference principle, where no inequality can exist without it benefiting the lesser advantaged.

It’s probably because my Ethics professor used so many acronyms that it occurred to me when I saw a JC bumper sticker to place Jesus Christ in the OP. I’m not big on Christianity, but my theory is that if Jesus Christ was deciding principles in the original position, the crucifixion would have never occurred. Jesus would have been blind to the fact that he was the son of God in the OP, and would therefore simply choose equal principles, not principles that would have subjected someone to being a martyr for the greater good, as a Utilitarian might do.

Thursday, December 22, 2005


The first time it was like pine-
the sterile smell snuck into
the house disguised as mother
and collapsed on the sofa.
Crowding the room with unconsciousness
and the faintest scent of Opium.

Later, it was a photographer I dated
for two months who took a picture of Bombay
for a magazine ad and took refrigerator acid that
dissolved on his tongue like
West Bend diamonds.

Lime poetry readings,
David Lehman martinis...
a graduate student named Zeke,
East side tree sap
tonic and ice
tonic and ice, tonic and ice…

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Saxophones always remind
me of New York City, even though
I’ve never been there.
Perhaps an immigrant plays
his saxophone at night – echoing and
dancing among the city lights in
lonely thick soprano tones,
in a place rich with
dreams and saxophones.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Cod Liver

I keep leaving the p out of hapiness.
When it's time to change the laundry,
I open the fridge. Omega-3 fatty acids
come from game meat or fish,
Eat well, live long…
and repair the lapsed synapse.

Monday, December 19, 2005

A Holiday Poem

Every year
the year goes by like
survivable Christmas suicide.
Maybe this winter,
maybe this time.

Family Dinner

There is never enough to eat at these
post-martini dinners-
a carrot a piece, the frozen peas, and you,
your face in the mashed potatoes,
frightening the children.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005


welcome to my taco
find the teacup under the sheet
have a sip of lemonade
park your car in the beef garage

put your hand in the clown’s pocket-
a rented tuxedo of flesh,
a hot pocket,
a ham sandwich,
bacon for breakfast,
a rooster fish

it’s gutted rabbit grilled cheese gold-
a sad little clam, a landing strip, a wound
that will never heal.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

A Tribute to Anne Sexton

I just did my oral repot on Anne Sexton for my poetry class, which included the following biography:

Anne Sexton was born in 1928 in a small town near Boston. Sexton began experimenting with poetry as a teenager, but did not seriously begin writing until late into her 20’s, after her second nervous breakdown. A housewife and mother of two daughters, Sexton seemed to have an ideal life, but was plagued with mental illness and a fascination with suicide. Poetry became her outlet, and for a time, a reason to live.

One of Sexton’s early experiences with poetry began when she saw a program on educational television about sonnets. After learning the form of the sonnet from her mother, Sexton obsessively wrote sonnet after sonnet, and although none ultimately survived to become published, the behavior set a precedent for Sexton’s vigorous approach to poetry.

Sexton regretted her own lack of formal education, but her anxiety and fear of strangers prevented her from going back to school. In retrospect, Sexton’s anxiety and panic attacks seem ironic considering the bravery that exists in her work. Sexton wrote about women’s issues that were shocking for the time, such as menstruation, sexuality and abortion. Sexton also had a tendency to write about death, which she described as “a prerequisite for life”.

The personal honesty of Sexton’s poems earned her the title of confessional poet, one shared by her mentor W.D. Snodgrass, whose poem “Heart’s Needle” reminded Sexton of her own separation from her daughters and inspired her to write “The Double Image”.

Sexton studied with John Holmes, where she met Maxine Kumin. She and Kumin formed a very close relationship, spending hours at a time critiquing each other’s work, and writing children’s books together. Upon Snodgrass’s recommendation, Sexton also studied with Robert Lowell, who helped her publish her first book To Bedlam and Partway Back.

Sexton wrote letters and sent poems to many writers, readily accepting feedback from people she admired. She also had an epistolary relationship with James Wright, which eventually led to a dynamic and passionate affair, one that continued as she produced her second book, All My Pretty Ones.

With two books published, Sexton had become a successful and well-recognized poet, however, it was her third book, Live or Die that received the most recognition by winning a Pulitzer Prize in 1967. Sexton published several other books following this, including Love Poems, The Death Notebooks and The Awful Rowing Toward God
Although Sexton’s poetry flourished, she was still plagued by mental illness, as well as an addiction to alcohol and pills. She idealized suicide and looked at the methods of Monroe and Plath as archetypal ways for a woman to kill herself.

Sexton divorced from her husband “Kayo” in the early 1970’s, and further isolated herself from friends and family with needy and erratic behavior. It sounds anti-feminist, but without her husband by her side, Sexton became even more unstable. In 1974 she chose asphyxiation as her method of suicide. She left behind a completed book to be published called 45 Mercy Street.

I also read several selections of Sexton's work in my oral report, but I'm only going to include the first.

from Live or Die

I have heard of fish
coming up for the sun
who stayed forever,
shoulder to shoulder,
avenues of fish that never got back,
all their proud spots and solitudes
sucked out of them.

I think of flies
who come from their foul caves
out into the arena.
They are transparent at first.
Then they are blue with copper wings.
Neither bird nor acrobat
they will dry out like small black shoes.

I am an identical being.
Diseased by the cold and the smell of the house
I undress under the burning magnifying glass.
My skin flattens out like sea water.
O yellow eye,
let me be sick with your heat,
let me be feverish and frowning.
Now I am utterly given.
I am your daughter, your sweet-meat,
your priest, your mouth and your bird
and I will tell them all stories of you
until I am laid away forever,
a thin gray banner.

The poem is copyright of Linda Gray Sexton and Loring Conant, Jr.