Saturday, September 09, 2006

I think I can actually do this

My classes at UT are seeming a lot less intimidating to me now. I've been working with the CD that came with my Geology book, and it has helped tremendously. I'm pretty sure that I nailed the first quiz in lab too. German is very demanding, but I think I'm keeping my head above water. As long as I never let myself fall behind I'll do allright. I think that's what happened to me when I took French in high school - I fell behind and could never catch up. I wish I would have taken high school seriously, but I'm not big on whining about the past. I'm more into doing the best I can now. If reincarnation exists I'll take high school seriously next time. In fact, I think I'll be a straight A student from first grade on. Either that or I'll come back as a starving orphan in some underdeveloped country, or a bunny rabbit. I think bunny rabbits know stuff.

Nik and I went to the Tennessee Valley fair last night. We rode on lots of rides and had a really good time right up until that last ride. That last ride was evil. My hands were shaking when I got off of it and I felt terrible for hours afterwards. It reminded me of what my life used to be like before I stopped drinking. Blah. I felt so horrible I wanted to go straight home after the fair instead of attending the interest meeting for Philosophy Club at UT. I'm really kicking myself for missing that, but I'm going to try to still get involved with Philosophy Club. As non-social and non-conformist as I'm being, it would still be nice to be involved in something.

There isn't a lot going on that I want to be a part of. Lots of Greek organizations, political stuff, religious stuff, etc. I may go to German table on Monday. Nik has a sort of a martial arts class around the same time, so we're planning on going downtown together and then meeting up after our seperate activities to go see Harry Belafonte. I love Harry Belafonte, ever since I saw him on the Muppet Show. He's so full of positive energy. Even with my semi-dark personality, I find it contagious. Nik thought he had died. I told him he must be thinking of Tito Puente. Has anyone else noticed that a lot of people who have guest starred on The Simpsons have died soon afterwards? Purely coincidence, I'm sure.

I tamper with the idea of visiting Germany either next summer or the summer after. Right now the idea of visiting Germany with the very limited understanding of the German language that I have is terrifying, but I have to remember that I'll have learned much more by the time I actually go. The summer programs are six weeks long. I don't think I could handle being away from home and studying abroad for a whole semester, but six weeks might be manageable. Mostly I worry that my cat's diabetes will start acting up again while I'm away. I don't know. It's something to think about.

Overall, life is good, except that I work tomorrow. I hate my job and don't want to do it anymore. Right now I only work on Fridays and Sundays, but I think I'm going to cut down to just Sundays. The only thing that keeps me from quitting altogether is the desire to be able to say that I worked at a certain place for a certain amount of time. I don't care at all about the money, and the work itself seems utterly pointless. A steady work history though, would be a nice thing to have. So I'll hang on for a while, keep my head down for one day a week, and weeks will go by.


Blogger Jay said...

Of course you can do this, it wouldn't be interesting if it wasn't a challenge.

September 22, 2006 2:03 PM  

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